Pissed off

This is the post that I have written few weeks ago and have been sitting in my draft :-

I am extremely angry! Yes very angry! I didn't intend to break the silence of this blog with an angry post after untouched for weeks but I couldn't help it at this present moment. So the bloody shit matter that has been bothering me all this while is assignment. Not individual assignment but group assignment.

I don't fucking care about who you are and what you do, but seriously, if it is a group project, do it with enthusiasm and give your best all you could. I always thought group assignment is the best way to actually PASS the whole unit because group work means everyone can contribute their different ideas and nail the project with a distinction together.

There are 5 people in my group including me. So 3 didn't actually contribute much! When I said didn't contribute much means their piece of work are not useful in any other ways which then concluded I have to take their shits and re-do it. 1) Never attend group meeting because of work. 2) Always give excuses they couldn't send their part on time. 3) Unwilling to pay the materials for the project. And in the end, they questioned me why did I buy this and that? Wow!! Give a round of applause for people like that, didn't do much can still respond with dignity and pride.

And the 4th person get on my nerves too! I know everyone has work responsibility and has commitment but that doesn't mean that people's time and money is valueless. What is the feeling that I am supposed to feel when I waited for an hour in uni (so that I won't wait too long for the person to show up in the station) before I took another 1hour train to the designated meeting place and in the end 10 minutes before the meet up the 4th person said "Can you go home instead because I couldn't make it, my boss gave me a last minute shift'. What the fudge?!!?! I was so angry and I didn't have enough sleep the day before because I had a presentation the same morning, and a group member didn't turn up and for that reason we had to do it the next following week. TWO FUDGING THINGS IN A DAY?!

It seems like I couldn't be angry and blame the 4th person. The next day, I spoke what is needed to be said and all she could say was "I am sorry. So what you want me to do? It is a yesterday thing". It took me another one hour or so to get home. I bought the ticket to the designated station and I got down, bought another ticket home. So my money and time is not important, her work and her boss is important. The next day she even said "What are you complaining about, I am sitting her all day doing the work". They will forever not understand how I valued time and money, all they could think of is themselves and what they feel like doing at the present time.

Just because 3 person didn't manage to give me a proper piece, 4th person canceled the meet up two days before presentation and 24hours before the assignment is dued I have to work till 1am and sleep deprived. Oh god, please sustain me! So is this fair or unfair?

Another case was before she did the artwork cutting, I told her to shades the sides with a black marker before cutting so that it looks better. The next day, the shades was so ugly because she shaded it after cutting. Damn smart right?! So stubborn and didn't wanna listen. So our conversation went like this

Me : Why is the shades is so uneven?

Person : I did it on purpose because it was ugly after I cut it.

Me : What? I told you yesterday right, to shade it before cutting. So you didn't wanna shade it at all from the first place although I advice you to do so yesterday, so that the artwork stands out better.

Person : Ok. Listen! *stop walking* So I am not doing right? I shade it. I did it on purpose.

Me : Yes. But you have to shade it before cutting.

Person : You are not talking properly. My brain is not working and I don't understand what are you talking about.

See. that is how people will respond to me with all these simple sentence just to put a BIG FULL STOP in their work.

If they didn't really want to study in uni, then why bother doing it?! Just because they still wanna have fun and other dedicated/committed students have to eat your shits? PLEASE, if anyone don't wanna study and merely go to uni for the sake of the certificate, get your entire self out of uni life. It is unfair to say this but it really got me thinking that the locals never appreciate what they have. That is why I rather mix or work with international students compared to the locals. (But I am the only international student in the class. It sucks. Really!)

Silence is not golden to me right now. This is my blog. I have freedom of speech. If you got pissed off because I write this, you are right and feel free to feel it too. And if you feel pissed off and guilty over such issues, it doesn't make you better ONLY UNLESS YOU ARE WILLING TO CHANGE!

Edited : This happened two weeks ago. So one of those important days, my mobile alarm didn't ring for some reason and I overslept. So indeed the person reached my home and I was still sleeping. I have already been agreed to be picked up at 7am. At 7.10am I heard someone knocking on my door and I got the utmost shocked in life, I jumped off the bed and looked at my mobile 'Shittt!! 7.10am!!" I went to open up the door and I was been greeted - "WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" so yeah. But to look at it, it happened to me that I waited for that same person for an hour due to her forgetfulness of forwarding the clock during daylight savings. In return, I just waited, I make a few phone calls and the person said she's coming and I was waiting outside in the cold thinking she would be here in a few minutes. Instead, in the car I was told that when I called her, she just woke up. Brilliant!!

Edited edited : Finally the end of semester, at least, I got back my share portion in terms of monetary.

I am happy a bit now for now since I am done with them.